Welcome to the forum.
The use of a machine (after the start up) will make you a better person and feel better. Don't give up your hope, because, maybe, after a few months using the machine you can get rid of her.
I can tell you: the machine craving is worst than a drug craving once that you get used to her. Focus your will in to defeat the first time of exploitation, and avoid the mask leaks.
Good luck.
Ralph.